Wow. It has been a very long time since there was any reason to come to this site, more than two years. So why the return? Why did I leave in the first place? Good questions.
To be honest, the reason I stopped updating the website was that I didn’t know where I was going in life in general. I had lost my motivation to make art or design games or any of the many other hobbies I have picked up and let go of over the years. I see now that I hit a plateau.
It started with finding a job that I really enjoy, teaching. For the first couple of years, the students really challenged my skills by forcing me to understand the processes of what I was doing. That in turn encouraged me to explore many other areas, such as graphic design and photography. Of course, like any other job, it started to become routine. The hobbies that I had picked up lost their lustre as I gained a greater command of them. Essentially, I wasn’t learning anymore and I grew bored. Happy, but bored.
I spent the last couple of years trying to figure out who I am and what I wanted to do. Was I an artist? Game Designer? A teacher? I started to teach myself to program, was that what I wanted to be? I enjoyed doing so many things, but I could never seem to focus on only one. In order to really be good at something, you have to be dedicated to it and I flittered from one thing to the next. Then one day, it dawned on me that I was looking at the whole situation from the wrong direction. I was looking for that one thing and was only seeing the multitudes. As the cliché goes, I wasn’t seeing the forest through the trees.
I am a creator.
I wish I had a fancier word that would impress people when they saw it on a business card, but it really is just that simple. I have a fervent desire to learn new things and apply that knowledge to all the others. Everything we know has a system and discovering the systems is what excites me. Game Design is no different from Photography, which is no different from Community Building. It’s one in the same for me. That is why this site is back. I need an outlet for my creations and a place to share my journey.